I am filled with hatred, loathing and bitterness today. I am tired, frustrated, exasperated, disgusted, in pain, bored with my job, bored with my life. The darkness inside my head is becoming more prevalent as time goes on. I dont' know how much longer I can keep this shiny, fluffy, happy facade up before it breaks in two and the blackness spills out. little bits have been seeping from the cracks the past few days and I can't keep wiping them away for much longer.

Nobody gets it and noone gets me. I think a big part of the problem is that I can't express myself to the extent that I feel I need to. I have to find an outlet.

Maybe I'll start a new blog that is just for the sole purpose of ranting and raving and spilling out hatred.