I'm lacking sleep. Yep. For the first time in my life, I'm having trouble sleeping. It SUCKS!
For the last few months, I've been staying up late having fun chatting with people on IM. A lot of my "chatter" friends live on the West Coast, so they have a two hour advantage over me. When it's 9pm thier time and they're ready to chat, it's 11pm my time. Oy.
I've begun noticing the effects of this - knock 2 or three hours of sleep off per night and it catches up with you. So, I made a promise to myself to get to bed earlier. Riiiight. Easier said than done. After finishing up a quick chat with someone last night around 10, I thought I'd pop around the blogs for a few then crash. I fooled around with blogger for a while since it had decided to get a kink in it's tail and not allow access to certain blogs, including my own. Then I read a few that would come up, then I ended up chatting with someone else until damned near midnight. Crap. This morning I am soooo tired.
I used to fall asleep in front of the TV before 10. Although that is lame, why can't I shut my damned brain off before midnight now? Sheesh! Stupid wheels won't stop turning.
I'm in much better shape today emotionally than the last couple of days. I've come to terms with recent events and understand now that it's how it has to be. Circumstances beyond our control and rational, honest minds won't allow feelings and emotions to reign. It's realism at it's starkest - cruel, harsh reality wins again. pffft. Some day I'll get my prize. Now, if I could only get my sleep cycle straightened out and control my damned dreams once I am out. Now that's another challenge entirely. The one I had last night is going to haunt me all damned day, I know it.