Might Just Let it Go

I know I said it's all right
But you can make it up next time
I know he knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying

Maybe he thinks I know something
Maybe he thinks it's fine
Maybe he knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no, no one
Likes to be let down

I know he loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with his sleeping eyes
And I know that when he said he's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know he usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em,
nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe he'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no, no one
Likes to be let down

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me down


*sigh*
I hurt today...emotionally. I just can't win some times. I'm so very, very tired of trying. I just don't have the energy any more. I am tired of just letting things slide and internalizing the hurt and putting on a happy face when I'm not fucking happy, damn it.

Wow...crying really is hard on the skin under my eyes.

I hope this weekend gives me the refresher that I need so very badly so that I can dive back into my life with a fresh perspective. I don't think I'm going to be gone long enough...


Update - an hour later. Just got a phone call and an apology. Doesn't change much, but I suppose, for what it's worth, I feel a little better. I'll be ok. I always am.