The Emotional Rollercoaster

Humans are emotional beings. Some say it’s what sets up apart from the animals. I do not necessarily agree with that considering that I have seen my pets in various states of anger, happiness, frustration, fear and sadness. They feel it Just as we do.

I digress.

My life has been an emotional rollercoaster. I normally like rollercoasters, but this one is getting old. Although it is this type of variety that makes life exciting. It’s just been a bit much to handle lately and I’ve found myself wanting to jump off. It's hard to keep them under control some times, them derned emotions.

It's just emotion that's taken me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling...

Gee, thanks a lot, Boo. LOL

I digress AGAIN. *sigh*

I’ve been feeling:

Frustration over watching my husband try to build his own business, workers and associates who have let him down or betrayed him, difficulties caused by shoddy work on others’ parts he has been forced to take the fall for.

Sadness and empathy for friends who are struggling with depression, anxiety and difficulties in their lives and my lack of ability to help them other than just being there for them.

Appreciation for good friends who have been there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on or someone to just listen when I needed to talk, whine or pitch a fit.

Bewilderment over a friend or two who have turned their backs or built walls.

Excitement regarding my son’s upcoming adventures as a member of a soccer team.

Worries about my son’s upcoming swimming lessons. I’m so glad he has the opportunity but worried that I won’t be there and the possibility that he could drown or be hurt (baseless paranoia).

Admiration of the makers of Splenda and Blue Bunny low-carb fudge bars.

Trepidation regarding a widely varying income level and the ability to maintain financial stability

Joy over newfound, wonderful friends and the pleasure of getting to know them.

Disappointment over not getting to go to California over the 4th of July as I’ve planned for months and months. I want so badly to be there.

Anticipation of the fact that I will be going there – it has simply been postponed.

Horror, humiliation, anger and betrayal because of an angry, spiteful person’s baseless accusations voiced to the DHS regarding our “abuse” of our child and the resulting investigation. He has never been anything but cared for and loved since he was born and has never known any kind of abuse. This became obvious when he was interviewed.

Amusement while watching my son and his best buddy (neighbor girl) enjoy finger painting last night. What was I thinking when I bought those? Man, what a mess. lol

Frustration over the fact that our damned TV died. I think the tube went out – the picture is a scrunched line across the screen. I really don’t want to spend the money on a new one.

Apprehension about my marriage as we struggle to try to work together through these things rather than having them tear us apart.

Overwhelmed when it comes to handling all of the shit that's being slung my way.

Delight in the feeling of wearing the beautiful new dress that I bought for myself yesterday at lunch. I love it and it makes me feel so pretty.


See? I was able to throw some good stuff in there – not just negative things. Those nasty little demons can eat my shorts. It’s all a balance – the yin and yang. When life gives you garbage, make compost and feed your flowers.